MY ONE TRUE LOVE

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I don’t have anything to say for now…my head’s jampacked with a lot of things to THINK..hahaha. I just thought that it would be nice for a blogpost but I do not have anything to write about it…so why not YOU (yes, YOU my blogging friends and readers), write something about it then I’ll just read your blog for some insights. Share your love story – be it a sad or happy ending, just share it! How you guys met and how you parted and how you end up together again.

Hindi naman masyadong Valentine di ba? Nag fe-feeling mushy-mushy. Alam ko na, epekto kase to ng pagma-marathon ko ng FOXY LADY (11 hours straight). Na-enjoy ko sya ha. Nakakatawa.

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How many people actually find the love they dream of? Until they realize that true love is just around the corner….

Napa-isip ako bigla, baka mamya nga my 1TL is just around the corner, haha, sino ba ang mga nasa left and right ko sa opis? Waaaah. And just like dun sa story ng FOXY LADY (love story ng 33yo girl who fell in love with the brother of her bestfriend, 9 year age gap), my bestfriend Ruth, has a kid brother din and I think 9 years older din ako. waaaaaahahaha! Wag ganun, ang sagwa!

 

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What about Love?

by Lemar

What if I took my time to love you,
What if I put no-one above you,
What if I did the things that really mattered,
What if I ran through hoops of disaster,

No-one would care, if we never made it,
Were in this alone so why don’t we face it,
There is no room to blame one another,
We just need time to forgive each other.

What about love? What about feeling?
What about all the things that made life worth living?
What about faith? What about trust?
And tell me baby what about us?

How can I give this love a new beginning?
How can I stop the rain that’s never ending?
How do I keep my soul believing?
Memories of how we should be keep calling.

What about love? (What about love?)

What about feeling? (What about feeling?)
What about all the things that make life worth living?
What about faith? What about trust (tell me)
And tell me baby what about us?

I’ll take the river’s ride
I’ll take the happy times,
I’ll take the moments of disaster.

 

PS

T1i4UWuA…iHuRhN.H,ifmHwoU.Gbf.

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I just wanna write about my long lost crush.

FLASHBACK: 1st Year College

Oh my! He was one of the gorgeous boys around the room. Perhaps, the most gorgeous if I may say. Soulful eyes. Great skin tone. Pointy nose. A real killer smile. (Clue: Jericho Rosales or Piolo Pascual look alike). He was my BIG CRUSH crush then…and up to these days, after 11 years of wandering, he still remained as my ONE-BIGGEST-CRUSH-IN-THE-WHOLE-WIDE-WORLD.

This is not an obsession, of course. It’s just a lifelong appreciation of one’s CUTENESS and HUNKNESS. Kinda highschoolish-sort-of-thing.

We never really got close but I really feel inside of me that we can be sooo good together, once given a chance. Haha. Well, that’s what FLAMES/HOPE made me believe about him and me. And mind you, I did keep that small piece of paper on my diary for proofs someday. Could he be my soulmate?

He’s one classmate I get to see once in a while in the most rare places and in my most haggard looks. I’d seen him once while dining out,  alone @ SM. Imagine how broke and desperate I looked that time. No sleep yet, big bag, plastic bag, big eye bags and eating alone, waaaah, plus, worst of all, unmanageable OILY hair.

Well, he did talk to me, at least — about his EX who happened to be my officemate. I am such a loser.

Fast forward 3 weeks ago, I bumped into him again but this time, I was a lil bit ok-looking. I was 20 meters away but I knew it was him so I was like, all smiles while afar even before he recognizes me. And when our eyes met….suddenly, there were *Sparks*Firecrackers*Sparks* all over. See, I felt that there is a connection between us. Yeah, I felt it but I’m not sure if he felt it or if he saw those firecrackers all over Cubao too. Hahaha! He’s so gwapo more than ever.

So when I got home, I excitedly and ecstatically searched him on Friendster only to find out that he is TAKEN and happily posing with his girl. I am such a loser talaga. Akala ko jackpot na. I don’t wanna be hopeless but I guess, I’m never gonna have a chance to be with him. So much for CRUSHING someone who never even look at me the way I look at him. No peelings at all. So there, goodbye to you crush. But wait……

Fast forward 1 week ago..

Being the nosy girl that I am, I checked his profile again and voila, I think…..they broke up. Waaaaahhh…I don’t wanna be happy about it because it’s just plain bad BUT…I can’t help it. I am glad! I’m freakin’ glad. There’s gotta be someone for your soul somewhere dear..and you don’t have to look that far…that’s mE. I’m here..all for yah. Naks. OA.

So out of desperation, in-ADD ko kaya, just in case lang naman na baka mapansin ako (finally)…esp. now that he’s finding a way back into love..nagbabaka-sakali lang ang lola nyo…pero anak ng………..ini-isnab ako. Ilang days na eh ayaw akong i-approve. Tseh! Hay naku, makatulog na nga. This is just the end of it all. I’m giving you up. It’s gonna stop here, right now. There’s just no point of wanting you as bad as this, if you never even want me for a friend. C’mon, we’ve spent 5 years of college together, maybe not that close but am I not a friend to you at all?

It’s pointless, hopeless and all waste of time. Goodbye to yah and I hope you find for someone to shed you some light, not just somebody to get you through the night. I’m sure you’ll find your way back into love. All the best to yah, JJ.

PS

I care about yah.

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The craziest things I’ve done in College

Here’s another LITTLE DRAMA I wanna share to all of you. For the first time in (many) years, I will confess SOME secrets buried deep in my heart…those *things* I don’t want to talk and remember about then, will be, finally OUT and EXPOSED here. Now.

Let me start the story.

* I hated RUTHIE AMPER the first time I saw her. She was so annoying. So loud and hyper and I just didn’t like hanging around with TOMBOYish girls just like her.

* I shamingly courted a guy. Yah know, love letter stuffs and the like. It was kinda fun and it made my first year in college truly memorable. I even went all the way up to Galas QC to find his whereabouts. I sent him a rose too, on Valentine. Crazy crazy stuffs. Here’s the funny thing, the guy (CV) and his friends thought it was Ruthie sending him all those love notes. It was a relief on my part. I owe you a lot, Ruthie. I could die instantly of shame without you protecting my identity. SO now, once and for all, to you CV and all EE 1996-2001 PUP, I am the real MARGARITA.

* I really did like John O. so much and I was vocal about it. And I thought Andrew C. was really handsome.

* I believed that Jayson J. was my soulmate.

* I hated SIR before. Ang angas kase. But the tide has turned, I’m loving him now, more than ever, for reasons I don’t know. It was like, I said I wasn’t gonna lose my head, but then POP! Goes my heart. Hahaha.

* I dated a guy who was 3 years younger than me. He’s the younger brother of my very good friend. No naming names. Case closed.

* I had a slight crush on AD before, who is now my kumpare. Buti na lang at pwedeng ma-turn off.

* Falling in and out and in and out of love with RC — my-so-called-first *puppy* love. Contrary to what others say, first love does die especially if it wasn’t meant. It may take a while but it will pass and your agony will end. Trust me.

* The reason why I got a perfect UNO with my Physics 1 class was because I cheated big time. The next sem I took Physics 2, I almost failed it.

* I failed Accounting class. It’s not just acceptable for me. I would galdly accept it if I failed Calculus or Thermodynamics but a minor subject like Accounting, it’s not just right.

* I had a really big fight with one of my very close friends (EO). We see each other almost everyday but things are never the same between us. There were things I hoped I never said to her. They’re BAD for the soul. But I would like to think that all is well between us NOW although we rarely talk.

* I danced MACARENA in front of my classmates. It’s a class presentation and I had to do it. Yuck talaga. Everybody was screaming as I groove into that song. The thing is, I was giving it my best shot. I was TODO BIGAY that day. Eiwww.

* I didn’t like Syana before. She was very maarte and she looks very sosyal. Well, yah know, simple gurls like us don’t hang around with rich kids because we could get insecure. I’m glad that we hit it off after a while.

* I had a crush on MCL kahit na he was so ANGAS nung college. I was just joking around then but when he started to show some real nice attitude towards me, I couldn’t help it. But he’s taken now. God bless on your fatherhood.

* Hitting 2 birds with one stone. Pag last full show na pala walang guard na nagbabantay. So after watching the movie in Cinema 1, we head right off to Cinema 2 without tickets. Deadma lang. Pero nakaka-kaba. Heads down, walking slowly, praying and hoping that nobody could see us. I swear, I’m never gonna do it again.

* Playing BINGO at SM with Jean Maceda. Haha. Up ’til now, we’re still arguing kung sino ang nag pasimuno sa aming 2.

* Hiding from Ms.D so we could watch SN (joyce and albert movie). Real bad.

* Ruthie and I tried to watch Ligaya (Osang movie) but since it’s R18, the guard didn’t let us in. I was determined to lie about my age but I was never really good at it. We ended up watching Evita.

* Pumila kami nila Ruty sa Eat Bulaga para sumali sa isa nilang pa-contest. Call it desperate school girls.

* Singing out loud on class while listening to a walkman. I was totally unaware that I was singing my heart out.

* Staying at Luneta with Jean M., Emily E. etc., from dusk ’til dawn. Natulog yata kami dun eh.

* Attending swimming class with my friends (Syana, Elrin, mimi and ruthie) wearing the same swimsuit which was more like a ballerina dress – the one with the bloomers on it. We were so cute!

* Becoming JMB’s mysterious text mate. Haha.

* Becoming one of the official MASCOTS of PUP ECE Batch 1996-2001. The TELETUBBIES. It is by far the craziest thing I’ve done in college. Shameful yet memorable. I didn’t regret it. Never. It was fun amd we nailed it. We actually won first prize.

There are still a lot of crazy things I would like to include but these were the highlights. I would add some more if I have time.

Ayway, GTG now. SM here we come. Father just arrived early morning today and he can’t wait to set his foot on SM again. Kidding.

I’m starting GY on Monday and I’m not sure how to deal with it. I will miss AM peeps. esp. YOU — secrate!

I can’t wait for the complete season 2 of Prison Break. Argh! I only have episodes 1-10 of Season 2. I’m missing Scofiled terribly.

I was marathon-ing 12-in-1 KOrean films last night. Nakakatawa. Ang hilig nila sa ganitong expression:

Fighting! Fighting!

In Korean, it’s AJA! AJA!

It actually means FIGHT! FIGHT!

But Koreans prefer present continuous tense. Haha.

PS

Please don’t ask me about some things in here, personally . There are things that are better left unsaid. Believe me, it’s for the good of everyone.

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Meet my SponKie

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Looking good together

 

Oh my! Ewan ko ha…pero parang kamukha siya ni SIR. As in. Pramises pa!! Har har har

 

Eto pala, I’ve seen Music & Lyrics twice. And I can’t get enough of Hugh. Also, may firated DVD na din nito sa bahay.

I’m so loving LIMEWIRE!!!

Philippines – the most CORRUPT country in Asia. Yuck.

Today is Friends-Are-My-Priority Day! Movies with officemates + overnight swimming with some college friends.

That’s all. C yah!

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Live your best life!

Just a quick update.

I’m going to be really busy in the next few days or weeks or months for an upcoming benefit concert. No date yet. Will let you know the details soon. Oh yeah, I’m chasing MY DREAMS!!

Malen love doing a lot of things altogether all at the same time. I seem to be forgetting my focus. And I don’t even know where to put my (career-wise) FOCUS on, really. Is it on TECHIE stuffs like my long time frustrations of becoming a programmer. I also wanted to become a BIGTIME entrepreneur. And now, I’m into Production. I guess, I’m just living my life to the fullest/foolest. And after this, I might try baking. Digital Imaging. Gardening.

I’m luvin’ it! Keep doing what keeps you going! This sounds very cliche, but life is short and I’m making the most out of it. AJA!!

PS

I’ve not been thinking about SiR these past days. We haven’t texted for a while. Mauntog sana sya. Whahaha

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Wen SUM1 (suddenly) writes back!

SUM1 = can be your ex-friend, ex-g f/b f, ex-officemate, ex-crush, ex-classmate, ex-bestfriend

It’s just overwhelming and flattering di va? Parang, wow, all these years, nakaalala ka bigla when in truth, I *almost* have forgotten about you. Haha. How conceited one could easily get. Imagine, YOURSELF(for all that you are and have done to them), occupying a tiny space in their hearts and thoughts, how cool is that?? I’m so freakin shocked and it took me days and hours to reply back! So to all of you, who remembered me after 48 years, you just made feel SIGNIFICANT and loved! I’m just glad to have met all of you along the way. It made me feel that my life here on earth is all worthwhile. Walang sayang. Thank you. Miss the old days. Really. Miss hanging out with you too. Yuf, we’ll see each other soon.

God lives and reigns supreme!

PS

JDV is back from HK. Sorry krung krungs, wala daw tayong pasalubong.

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I was hoping you’d show up

You didn’t even bother to text back. Hmpf! I’m starting to get really really irritated. Super EFFORT pa ako writing that 3-page-INVITATION and all I got from you is N O T H I N G. A simple YES or NO or I’M QUITE BUSY 2nyt or CU LATER would have been nice. Alam ko may load ka. Buti na lang I got this text from VC :

We choose how we see people. When we want to like someone, we can be so tolerant. When we want to be irritated by people, we focus on their faults. It’s not other people’s behavior that determine how we feel about them — it’s our attitude..

Since, I really really like to LIKE you, I will try to be as tolerant as I could. It felt bad, I guess I’m just dying to see you again, Sir. I was wishing the whole night that you’d somehow show up to surfrize me but you never came. Ouch! It hurts so baaaaaaad, I couldn’t even breathe. Wahaha. OA na.

I still believe that there is always the chance that fate will smile upon US. Someday. Oh God, I really hope and pray and wish for that to come. Please.

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Guni-guni in my mind

I have been wishing for some things that aren’t even close to getting REAL.

After doing a lot of thinking, I finally realize that, you ( yes, SiR) are just a part of the MANY guni-gunis in the corners of my mind…

So, I think I’m gonna have to give up for a while, until I am quite sure about you and everything.

Shanty my dear…call up if you’re not too busy. I’ll STILL be around.

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