My life so far is just…so-so.
Wow I’m almost halfway through my life and still, I don’t feel like I’ve accomplished great things over the past years. I do not consider myself a failure, not a succes either. I haven’t done many bad things, I haven’t done a lot of good things either. My life so far is just so-so. My state of mind is stucked at age 27, but when I check myself in the mirror…my youthful glow is slowly vanishing hahaha, why I look very matured?? LOLs. I failed to realize that I am getting old! In fact, I get surprised every time I tell myself that I am 34 already ! WAITTTT WHAAAT!!!?? I am 34??? How?? So that explains why whenever I stand up after a few minutes of sitting, I could feel my knees trembling and aching. I hope it’s not early signs of rheumatism. What have I been doing all these years? All these time I thought I am living to have a good life, instead, I am living because I am not dead yet. You get it, no? My life isn’t all that bad, ok. It’s just that, right now, when I look back at my life, I wish I had done this and that sooner. Not regretting those past choices I made, ok maybe, I am regretting a little, but hey, I still have plenty of time, right? 34 compared to 80 is still very young.
I used to say “I want to do many things” often and I believe, I was able to do that. I travelled, fell in and out of love (naksss), learned how to cook, rebonded and colored my hair, bought a nice phone, ate whatever I want etc. In other words, I lived a convenient self-centered life all these time! But from this day onwards, I want to try doing many WORTHWHILE things for the mankind! CHAROT! HAHHAHA.
Seriously, I don’t want to end up selfish, miserable, useless and unhealthy so I am committing myself to doing a few extraordinary things like joining a cause, donating blood, 10 sit-ups/day, green tea everyday, eating less rice/sugar/salt, show random act of kindness,
practice my singing and dancing, continue learning etc. I know it’s not going to be easy that’s why I am hesitating hahaha but I’m up for the challenge!
My life is bound to change soon. How’s your life so far?