Chuvaness

FLASHBACK:

That was year 2000, I forgot the exact date but it was Friday when I first saw him, papunta ako ng CR…and he was then going out. Our eyes met and for a moment…parang biglang may fireworks all over. Mahilig ako sa ganung drama. Yung tipong makakasalubong mo lang and yun na. It wasn’t planned…it just happened. O di ba…I found love in the most unexpected place - harap ng CR. Picture this, I stopped for a while to look back at him and guess what, he was also looking back at me, smiling mysteriously. @#$%^&*()!!!!! I was blushing to death. WHat was that? Parang MTV…but to me…it’s what you call DESTINY!!!!

Now come the formal introduction, gosh, he was gorgeous. Long hair, got lip and eyebrow piercing, tall with good bearing and really great guitar player. (Haha, ngayon naisip ko why did I ever fall for this guy? May piercing!!! HAHAHA) We never really talked that night. Out of nothing, he approached me and asked me where I live. Takot ako sa stalker so I told him about this subdivision somewhere in Caloocan….which turned out to be the exact same place where he lives. DESTINY NA TALAGA ITOOO!!!! C’mon, of all places di ba…what’s the probability that I would choose that same place over this place and that place. Since then..we hit off. We’ve become really good friends…and eventually lovers. Naks! For 5 friggin years…we’ve become exclusive for each other. We have shared many wonderful moments…nag-adik…nag-concert…gumawa ng album…nag-grow…nag mature..nagpa kulay ng buhok…sabay nag pahaba ng buhok…nag pedicuran…naglaba…nag-arcade…

2 years ago, I forgot the exact date but that was Wednesday night…holding hands while walking pa-sway sway pa under the moon…he proposed to me. Napaka romantic ng ambience. I forgot if I ever said YES, but I didn’t quite said NO.

2 days after that, with matching crylalu…he’s told me something you wouldn’t want to hear all your life. …I didn’t understand it then or maybe I was trying not to understand anything at all. I was clueless. All the while that we’ve been together…he’s been busy fooling around with his freakin’ ugly 3rd party!!!

OMG, did he broke up with me? YES!!! He friggin did it…and he did it over the phone. I demanded an explanation…I called up several times…texted him hundred times a day (may unlimited text kase nun) but he didn’t want to see me ever again. My God it’s over! Yung 5 years na yun…isang iglap lang..nawala ring lahat!

Ok fine! You can go with her for all I care. i don’t give a dang!!! Fookin’ shoot! you don’t have any idea what it feels to be cheated. It was hell. But what can I do? I refuse to admit defeat. This is not gonna happen. I will fight for our love…no matter what. Eng eng di ba. For 5 years, I invested time, effort, care, love and everything….sayang naman if I would just let the love of my life go with that maarteng walangyang babae na yun.

But you know, it doesn’t make sense anymore. As much as I want to save the relationship…it will be just a waste of time kase he already said that it was over. Hinde ako maghahabol…neva…and I will prove to you and to the world that this is going to be your loss. I will be victorious in the end!

2 years had passed. I am happy now. Happiest, if I may add and you’re not a part of it. I am not bitter. I was, aaminin ko, for 6 months I was mad at you…but at this point in my life…I have found peace and I have moved on. Really. I don’t have a lovelife yet but I will have…in a few days. Hahahaha

Now why I am blogging about this…

1:45 AM

LEN WER KA NOW

 

2:06 AM

LEN, are you still awake? reply ka naman

 

2:30 AM

len lungkot me, miss kita… pwede ba us meet? Please punta me dyan

 

3:15 AM

len cge na, cge na please…di naman me iba sau di ba….lam ko na andyan ka pa rin for me

 

4:00 AM

please malen…meet tayo…i am really sad…ang lungkot ng buhay ko…just want to ask something…pwede ba tayo mag meet? mag reply ka naman pleaseeee

 

5:52 AM

Len, reply please….cge na please malen..parang awa mo na

This is not the only time he asked begged me for a meeting. O di ba ang haba ng hair kooo. Aylabeeeet! But really, this isn’t the first time this happened. He’s told me many times na he love me still…and he didn’t have a choice then. Haller. His friends would tell me na hinde nga sya naging masaya sa pinili nyang buhay. His mom called me one time, crying and asking me if there’s ever a chance para maayos lahat.

2 years had passed since you said it’s over…I just wish you’d stop from calling and texting me again…mali ang akala mong I am still in love with yah. Dead wrong.

It’s just that…sabi mo nga….it’s over….don’t make things complicated for us…besides, I already found another fish in the sea. And feeling ko sya na talaga ang DESTINY koooooooo!!! Hahahahha

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