20 years is a long time to carry a memory. And whenever I remember that time of my life, I cannot help myself but cry and smile and be sad and then glad at the same time. It sorta did change everything in me.
*emote-emote while listening to Christmas Songs on background when I got a long distance call from the queen herself, ReynaElena…yeah know, we’re so in the same libuyhaba. Whenever you’re sad, I am sad too*
~Ok, after an HOUR of long distance chika chika chicks with the queen, let’s go back to our regular programming~
I’m sure, when you were younger, you always look forward to each and every Christmas party at school. I did too. But I missed attending those parties when I was younger. Not because I wanted to but because I had to. Wala naman akong choice. Hinde ako makapag-maganda dahil wala akong bagong wardrobe. Worse is, we cannot even afford to buy something for the exchange gift and that’s only worth 5Pesos then!!!
I can still remember that day….
*Insert Ballade Pour Adelaine (aka Lovingly Yours, Ate Helen BG MUSIC) here*
I was in Grade 2 Section 1 Row 2, sa Mababang Paaralan somewhere in Valenzuela, kung saan hinde ako nag-excel bilang estudyante, when I had a very traumatic experience. Sirang sira ang spirit of Christmas party sa musmos kong edad. My mom wont allow me to attend the party because nga she doesn’t have 5 pesos. Ga-balde ang iniyak ko. Ang butihin kong nanay, para tumigil ako kakangawa, nangutang ng 2 red chippy kay Aling Kastre, binalot and then nag walkathon ako excitedly to school (I had to walk kase wala akong pamasahe)… but when I got there….all dressed up (hiniram ko lang), the room was already empty and they all went home. Tapos na ang party!
Shocks, umiiyak ako while writing this.
I missed it. Nakakuyom ang mga palad, bigla kong na-isumpa ang dalawang balot ng CHIPPY na hawak ko sabay sabing bukas, babangon ako’t paluluhurin ko at dudurugin ang mga tala! Sinabi kong I will never ever buy CHIPPY again and up ’til now, I never buy (red) CHIPPY because it’s a constant reminder of my then young yet serious emotional torture. Siguro, tama lang na nangyari yun kase naman imaginin mo kung ikaw ang naka-receive ng Chippy para sa exchange gift, nakakaasar lang.
truth is, I was really really sad. Isa lang naman ang pinag -ugatan ng lahat ng yun, kase MAHIRAP talaga ang buhay namin noon. Sabi nga ni JOJITAH, kasinghirap ng hamster. I swear, my future kids will never ever go through that. Kesehodang gumapang ako sa lusak, kumain ng bubog or kumapit sa patalim (LOL) ma-itaguyod lang ang pamilya ko!! Ahahahha
But I didn’t have any regret, nor sorrow…when I look back upon my life, how God saved me and picked me up, it makes me wanna say Salamat jud Lord! Salamat!
There are a lot of people who go through much worse experience and mine was just something that would remind me to always place my trust in Him and never ever to put my feet, even for just 1 inch, above the ground and sea level. LOL
And since it’s the season of giving, it’s time that I give back to God what He has given me. This time, I wont be giving out gifts to those who can afford naman. I will give some to my church, charity, street children, oppressed and needy. Tarush!
It has been a good year!!! Lord, I pray that you will keep blessing me and my family and all my friends and blogmates so we can all be a blessing to others. Thank you for this wonderful life!!! It’s not always happy but there is always the hope that it will be.
HAVE A MERRY AND MEANINGFUL CHRISTMAS!!!
I LOVE YOU ALL!!!
Tawagan nyo ko or i-text nyo ko sa Pasko kase sobrang nakakalungkot. I am spending my noche buena in the office. Huhuhu
O kaya padalhan nyo na lang ako ng load. Hahahahha